Reflective Memories
Today, on your birthday, I think of you.
The first smile and kind words that were ever spoken.
I think of the moment when somehow I knew
love and pain were greeting me at the very same moment.
I ponder what mystery awoke my heart -
and I ponder what mystery knew its breaking.
Today, I reflect on the wound that was left
and the time it would take to heal its bleeding.
I wonder about the tears that still fall
with an aching desire to understand their meaning.
My heart feels heavy and full with expressions
that came up from a well too deep to explain.
I am left to pray to God through my tears -
each drop, a prayer of words unspoken.
A time will come, sometime, somewhere,
when pain and tears will become a quiet knowing.
A peaceful understanding will take its place
and my heart will smile as we embrace each other fully.
Peace to you and peace to me
in God’s wisdom lie all mysteries’ unfolding.
His ways are higher and always will be
though tears continue to fall -
yet, somehow, there is a knowing.
~Viola M. Jaynes
Feb. 2008
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Comment by maryt/theteach — February 21, 2008 @ 7:43 pm
beautiful and haunting. we have all experienced death and his heartbreaking work. May God bless you and help you, and yes, someday, you will see your loved one again.
Comment by cinnamonspice — February 22, 2008 @ 12:31 am
this is a very sad poem its hard to lose someone you love.the pain is horrible.talking to God will help.cry out to him he is always there to listen.
Comment by Shirleybug — February 22, 2008 @ 12:32 am
The inner turmol that results in the loss of someone that has been a big part of our life is one that leaves very slowly, a guest who stays to long.
Yet, without it, the memory, there would be total loss and perhaps that would be worse. A good poem of lingering sadness.
Comment by Bigbluepoet — February 22, 2008 @ 12:33 am
Viola,
These lines caught my breath:
I ponder what mystery awoke my heart -
and I ponder what mystery knew its breaking.
This to me is why love can be so hard and so frightening as well as so beautiful and embracing. This poem is simply wonderful.
Wishing you peace.
Comment by SandyCarlson — February 22, 2008 @ 1:31 am
Thank you very much!
Comment by Viola Jaynes — February 22, 2008 @ 3:34 pm
Viola this was written with such emotion. You have expressed yourself so well. Your poetry always has such a tremendous impact on the reader.
Comment by Rose — February 23, 2008 @ 1:55 pm
Viola, what a poem! You have written it such deep emotions. I pray for God’s peace and love for you.
Comment by Liz — March 5, 2008 @ 4:42 am
Perfect title, as a mom I could really relate. Smooth flow and the message is filled with bittersweet memories and great faith. Excellent, just excellent.
Comment by Leslie — March 6, 2008 @ 5:45 pm